New Meditation

New Meditation
SO HUM = I am this   It is designed to make you feel you are one with everything by accepting everything                     as part of you. There is no detachment, there is no isolation but you are also part of the shadow

NE TI= I am Not this  Is designed to help you let go of grasping,

Through both of these one is hopefully closer to finding detachment and oneness without ego calling all the shots. Mind and ego and emotions are not "bad" things they just are. Without them we would not be able to think, reflect, feel or be human. It is our challenge to let go, be present and be forgiving of self. After all we are just human.

200 hours completed YAHOO

Here is more. Poetry is just flowing out of me like crazy. I did a Rakey treatment which seemed to have unclogged a lot of blocked energy. I wouldn't say I'm healed as my heart often aches but there has been a softening. Graduated yesterday with 200 hours in teacher training.YAHOO My class was delightful and full of light fun imagery linked with technique. Theme:" I am strong, I am easeful and I am full of compassion. I invite all of these things into my life to serve myself so that I may serve others." Feeling more myself.  Our last 3 classes were held on a cliff overlooking the ocean. Beautiful. Best thing about yesterday was greeting each woman (25 total) and giving them compliments on how they had impacted us personally and then receiving that too. So powerful to accept acknowledgement and have some many see my creative, unique, compassionate, strong, joyful, childlike enthusiasm and strength. If that many people saw it it must be there. I have opened my heart here and showed authenticity and vulnerability. I guess I have allowed myself to feel safe.  This morning walked to a cliff overlooking the water and watched the waves jump and crash. Here's a poem from this morning: Sending love and peace. I so treasure you. Lee Ann

Wave Suicide

Waves throw themselves onto rocks

White spit jumps

No gentle C curve

But blatant leaps of death

Principles of Yoga 12/6 ish

Hi, Just ended a long day with night sky tied up with thunder bolts and heavy warm down pour. Stopped just in time to billy goat back to our cabins with wet sandals. Today was filled with anatomy lesson and more mind blowing was the principals of yoga. Just wanted to share they are all food for thought.

First principle: Practice non-violence or also known as  practice loving kindness to self and others.

2nd Principle Commit to the truth which includes right speech

       Right Speech asks

           Does it need to be said

           Does it need to be said by me

           Does it need to be said at this time

           Does it need to be said in this way

       These things all require practice.

3rd Principal Be in the Now, Present  LISTEN

 Things that can lead to suffering can include working on assumptions, working from false beliefs, desire, aversion,  ambition, aggression, weakness, laziness, anger, fear

 What is the path to love?

4th We are all one

5th Yoga is the resolution of consciousness ( in other words it is about being conscious in life and in practice)

Through yoga you can become aware of the interdependence of all things

Practice of Yoga

-fosters sense of oneness

-fosters presence

-become aware of consequences

-with consistent practice comes consistent presence

Teaching Principals

1)Show up on time. BE PRESENT TO LIFE. What needs to happen now

2)Be aware of your body and needs

3)Minimize effort- ease/grace/efficiency   Draw more from less

4)Cultivate patience

5)Cultivate hunger (eat only what you need, eat for nurishment)

6)All feelings are forms of energy-   sensation is just sensation, Curtivate curiosity

7)Cultivate sexual energy and direct it

8)Cultivate silence- creates space for listening

9)Morale imperative to make the world a better place

10)Ask for help you are not alone

11)When in doubt breath more

Poems inspired in Thailand at 4:00am

Hi There,  Here are some poems from Thailand I wrote last night. Bummer my computer went out. Here's a bit of insight on what I am experiencing. Lee Ann

Last night there was a dance that went all night with low base. Here's reflection

Dance

Base thumps air

Heart beat pulse stretches

  on fingers of tension

Three note loop cycles

Drone repeats, repeats, repeats,

Dance Chant

Downward Dog

Gecko fingers arch

Power "L" imprints

Toe balls press

Twisting, spiraling, wringing

Starving belly exposes finger ribs

Muscle suck bones tight

Tension align to easefull effort

Fear 

Fears crooked root fingers

Snake into sinue muscles thin

Tendril shoots activate venom

Impulses scamper seeking light to kill

Bound in doubt

Paralyzing desperation

Heart eatten of hope

Suffering pain twists chest

"Let go" wails pain

Final injection poised to transmute

    soul light to body dark

Antidote

Give self sedative of kindness

Cradle heart tender in hands Divine

Fill  lungs restricted with reminders of joy

The Abyss

Fall into vat of emptiness

Fall into yourself

Friends support good bye to hermit shell

Let go

Desperate grabbing, doubts tug

Familiarity falls aside

Footing gone

Bearings gone

Definition gone

Layers pull away

What remains past desperation

Emptiness, 

     Quiet

        Peace of nothingness

                   Presence

Presence

  No expectations

  No assumptions

  No past

  No future

Palate of choices open

All colors included

      Lights, Darks

      Black, white and grey

Listen, smell, atune, AWAKE

Alert, ever ready feet

      Athletic poised

      See options

      See actions

Choose knowingly because

     actions reverberate

Anatomy review

Years of anatomay have gone by yet here it comes back again. We studied tadashina (tada I'm standing).   This is a cross between Inengar yoga, yoga therapy, pilates, Alexander and more. Who would have thought that so much was involved in just one pose.  My anatomy discovery brain is in heaven. I so love learning.
       This afternoon we were given the principles of yoga. the first sutra
Non-violence aka loving kindness or also known as protect your self and others from harm.
For me translates as be kind to yourself and others.  There are many more principles but I need time to discipher before I can pass on accurately to you.
      Tonight the night sky was knotted with lightening followed by tropical down pour. We are all settling into group meals, early rising, outdoor showers, afternoon dips in the ocean and watching the local children play with the stray dogs. Staff are so friendly here and we are definitely being treated with loving kindness.
Wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving. May you be filled with gratitude for how far you have come on your journey of life. Namaste

Day #3 day before the intensive Full day in paradise

My camera died. Could have been upset as I headed out on camera safari, but instead this perhaps is a lesson on being present not on documenting. So as a result you may not be getting photos.
Highlights of my day
Sleeping til noon
A black petite kitten escorting me to the beach
Watching a red & green open wooden boat rock in the surface
Eatting fresh, fresh rabbit food  (radishes, pumpkin seeds, carrots, lettuce)
Watching a little african boy in beige heirham pants playing with a white terrier in the sand
Meeting his mother the quintesance of Brazilian hippie w eagle feathers, leather belt, tatooes and all
Standing into the yoga studio which is nestled in the tree tops and hearing the brook below
Having a frog greet me  outside on my stoop
Crying to a comrade and realizing most of us here are on the path to healing
Hearing the astrologer prophiside the day

Tomorrow we start into intensified training starting 6:00-8 yoga practice, then break, then back 8:30-12, then lunch, then back 1-5 then dinner then back 6-8 meditation/chanting.  So if I don't post you will understand. Here goes the dive. 

Inner Sanctum: I will be off soon on Friday. Starting to pack. Ru...

Inner Sanctum: I will be off soon on Friday. Starting to pack. Ru...: I will be off soon on Friday. Starting to pack. Running around like a squirrel. Lots of long flights ahead and airports & passport. &amp...

DAy #1 in Bangkok 12 hrs

Hi There, I made it to Bangkok. Long flights and found some American girls and we navigated the airports together. Everything is in Chinese (duh) fortunately there is lots of translation and people are helpful. Thank you in Thai is  "calm coon cup". No is Mika, Yes is Chai. That is the extent of my Thai so far. Still trying to figure out how to get into my blog site. Today fly out to the island, take a boat and then hopefully arrive at resort. Yoga teaching starts on Tuesday. Thick and muggy here and overcast with potential for rain. Internet maybe spotty once I get to the island. Off on second round of adventure. All for now. Lee Ann

She flew miles to find herself

She was quiet

She listened

She listened some more

and found the spark of herself she had lost 

and said hello, oh there you are

Here is the story of today. DAY #2 Lee Ann

      I mixed up my arrival dates and booked a hotel in Bangkok when I was actually flying in the air. Oops that fine print Damn, but found they were willing to take me in even though it was 2:00am, but then I had to fly out today to Ko Samui so didn't have time to do anything in Bangkok yet, but will do so with my sister.  The adventure of getting to Ko Samui was that. Got on early flight thinking that that might help w getting earlier ferry. It turns out last ferry of day was cancelled.  So found other guy and 3 others from Russia who also needed to get there too. We could rent a boat but 10 people was minimum  2 hours later, sunset coming upon us, and with beautiful people needed sign I made we were on our way. 12 min later we arrived all smiles with the refreshing breeze we landed handed suitcases over board and had arrived.  "how do I now get to the sanctuary" (I hear Quasi Mottos cry in my head "Sanctuary". "Sancturary) A man points walk 300 kilo to where the ocean is again and you will see a boat. Walked through t-shirt, fast food mania, to indeed find a beach. Asked about boat. Captain said how many. One he said wait, you wait for more. Fortunately another gentleman showed up a few minutes later and we tried to negotiate a price but the sky was black, stars were out and both of us were eager to be settled. Off we went on the 2nd boat ride of the evening to pull up to resort beach reminding me a bit of Disneyland. Plopped off over the side, feet curling in wet sand and shlepped backpacks to the front desk. Quickly I was ushered up a billy goat trail in bare feet to my cabin with electric fan, mosquite net, hammock, and outdoor showers & sinks.  The evening air is full of frogs and insects tuning up their orchestra hopefully w/o the hum of mosquitoes. This is were I'll be for the next 3 weeks.Lee Ann